One of the things that will often come up in my quiet prayer time, when I'm really carrying a lot of stress and/or frustration from a hectic day, is two little words that get my attention and cause me to take a very deep breath:
In my heart I know this is my Beloved's way of saying, "My child, why do you hold on to these worries and anxieties that you have no control over? Why aren't you leaving these with Me, that I may do what needs to be done and make all things work for your good?"
It seems so simple, and yet it takes such a leap of faith, an intentional act of the will, to open our hands and let go.
One day in prayer as I was kneeling in silence and just waiting on the Lord, I had an image of myself as a little child walking toward Jesus. He was standing there with His arms open ready to embrace me, but my arms were loaded with a huge pile of toys. I knew at once that I had to drop those toys if I wanted that embrace, and thankfully it didn't take me long to make my decision. Right there, without much hesitation, I dumped the entire pile of toys and ran into Jesus' arms. It was beautiful.
I sensed there were several things He wanted to help me understand in this imagery:
1. Be little and make the simple decision simple. I didn't have to sit there as a child and begin to analyze my options or what the long-term outcome would be. I just knew in my child-like heart that this amazing hug was waiting for me and it seemed so much better than anything in that pile of toys.
2. There was no considering that I wasn't worthy of what the Lord was waiting to give me. As a little child being presented with the joy of Jesus' face and the posture of His open arms, it didn't occur to me that I should consider my worthiness. He wanted to hug me, and I couldn't wait to run and receive that hug!
The writings of the Saints often reveal that their conversations and relationship with God was very childlike and humble. The more childlike they became, the less they struggled with allowing the Lord to use them. It was then that God was able to use them to perform the miraculous - from unexplained healings to powerful conversions, and the rise or fall of entire nations. "For when I am weak, then I am strong..." 2 Cor 12:10
It tends to get much harder as we become adults to allow anyone, especially God, to have authority or control over what's happening in our lives. Small children usually understand that they are not in control. They're usually quite content to depend on someone who is ready to help them and give them guidance in getting what they need. But as adults, we have this false impression at most times that WE are in control, and it's an unsettling thing when we find out we're not.
As I become closer to God, aware of His awesome love and authority in my life, and understand just a small portion of the amazing plan He desires for me - that's when surrender becomes less scary. That's when I start to "Let go", because my higher level of trust allows a deeper level of surrender. This is where miracles take root. This is where Holy Love comes in as the invited Guest and greater torrents of grace pour in, because the door is now opened wide.
On this powerful subject, I share with you another Prayer Warrior's journaling. The question that we each journaled with a while back was based on the formation program we were in. The question was a simple one, but deep humility and surrender was necessary to allow the Lord's answer to unfold without restricting Him:
What are you asking me to give up Lord?
This is what I understood from the Lord:
My beloved, in all areas of your life I am asking you to give up your attachment to results. With your children, you have taught them, prayed for them, (continue this), but let go of the result of your effort. I am in control. You are only to love unconditionally and to be grateful for the blessings. Same for your husband-- Love unconditionally. Do not hold onto expectations. As well as at work. Yes work hard, do your part. Do not hold onto the results. Same as with your business. Be my light. Share my love, share yourself. Love them all unconditionally and let go of the results. The fruit of your labor will come. But I am asking you to allow me control of the results. Love, Love, Love, Love. Smile and be my light. I will do the rest. Detach from Results.
Me: Yes Lord, I will do your work and let go of results. This is not easy for me. I need your grace to do this. My whole being/life I have looked at results. Help me Lord.
Today in prayer I beg of you, my most beloved brothers and sisters in Christ, ask for the grace to "Let go". The freedom that comes with this deeper level of trust in His care for us is unlike any synthetic freedom we perceive from wealth or health or popularity. It is a powerful freedom accompanied by holy joy and profound peace.
We have nothing to lose - but everything to gain.....